Show me magic and ill show you magic.

i feel this way every day but then i tell myself if the person really is THE person that their power will melt away the bitter wall that has crusted around us. Also you have to be honest with yourself and you KNOW that when you find someone attractive and enthralling all your walls automatically go away. So i will always have faith that no matter how bitter or cold or lonely i get the one im supposed to be with will always be able to find there way to me, no matter how blind i get. You just have to have that faith too. Besides, if we are alone when we are 40 theres always exotic animals we can own. ;)

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well if you’re in college then i say to go over, bring your wine, your nice outfit and best flirty queen B behavior and give it your best shot to woo him if you really like him. Go, have a couple of glasses of wine, eat his meal and then if he has the right wooing concoction, then maybe watch a movie and cuddle on the couch or if things are really aggressive then go to the bedroom. You’re in college so have fun and don’t think too much on morals just be safe. Use your INTUITION. It’s all we have as humans and you need to trust and believe in it, its always right. If you want to wife this boy then i wouldn’t sleep with him on the first date. If you see no future with the boy but you see a night, then have a night. You’ll be fine and don’t stress just have fun. No ones judging you. =) 

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No you’re not being picky, i haven’t found anyone drop dead attractive in months. Possibly even a year. I can’t find the right person with the right mannerisms and style and ideas that I’m looking for just yet and i believe that a person should never settle. I think that when you actually fall for someone it should be instant and you shouldn’t have to think twice about if you want to date them or not. You should just KNOW. So don’t drunkenly be a slut, just wait for that right PERSON. Not male not female, the right PERSON and when that right person comes along you won’t have any self control to think about being ashamed or embarrassed or confused, you’ll just want to be with that individual. <3

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Nepal bf cont. It was so awkward and when we got back to his place he was very distant, he didnt even want to hold my hand, he just sat with his arms crossed. Oh i forgot to mention that the last two weeks of his vaca. he never called, texted yes but nothing like he used to say, he would call his other friends i found out tho! What do you think am I over reacting???

( i put the two messages together)

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Well i would have no problem dating a 27 year old but since i turned 22 2 weeks aguish i don’t have the 21 insight anymore! But i do still have my boyology degree. Sounds to me you may have moved just a TAD fast, and now he’s maybe mentally trying to slow things down. What i would do is i wouldn’t contact him until he contacts you. There’s always going to be a reacher and a settler in a relationship. In a relationship i think its important to switch around that role. Dont always be the one going to him and wanting this and wanting that out of him, its important to be wanted as well. I mean you were only dating for two weeks don’t over jump it. 21 year olds if you remember are all over the place and never knowing what they want. They could want someone/thing one day and completely change the next, its just human nature. So my advice is to take things slow and to just calm down and let him come to you. If he doesn’t, then you have your answer. <3

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i mean sex is a big deal especially in the gay world because its frightening and its not really too natural and you dont know what to do or how bad its going to hurt or what can go wrong so i would just enjoy the little things and hopefully foreplay is going on and hopefully you’re older then 16 but if you’re not then i would say you should just cuddle for the next year or so but if you’re happy and not trying to be then i think you’re fine and everything will just fall into place. Dont force anything and when the timings right it will happen but just enjoy this stage in the relationship while its young and fresh and untainted because its the best time in a relationship and you have to appreciate it while you got it and not rush it. Enjoy the little things of a new relationship and dont make it complicated or mature when it really shouldnt be. Relationships are like the human aging cycle when you always want to go back to your youth and enjoy yourself while your young. Its the same with a relationship so you have to enjoy your young relationship too for all the nervous fresh new feelings because they are really special and wonderful. So cherish them and dont rush, just be. 

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The phone works both ways and like a relationship a friendship needs to be 50/50 there are no reachers in freindships its all equal. I say scew it and just do your own thing for a while until the person realizes and then when they do tell them how you feel. Also it would also depend what the argument was about and who was REALLY in the fault because someone is always at fault. If you’re at fault then you might have to reach a little more but if you arent then you need to just stop and wait for them, i mean a month really is such a short time to get over something i think after 6 months you have an issue but for now i think you’ll be okay and it will sort itself out <3

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lol wow, i mean all the signs there are telling me yes. The only way to know for sure is to just ask him. I would be like so hows your love life, what are you chasing these days. In a perfect world he’ll say “you” but .. this world isnt perfect so he’ll probably beat around the bush and youll just have to read in between the lines. I mean since he moved away anyway i would just ask him and get it out of the way because i bet it’s eating you up regardless. Sounds to me he does though 

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sweetheart i think the right thing to do is just to tell him to situate his life out before he thinks about incorporating another life into his. You cant really love or take care of someone else if you cant love and take care of yourself and usually people with behavioral issues have something going on inside them that they cant deal with so it comes out in the form of anger and disobedience. To be honest youd be a better girlfriend to let him situate himself out so that it doesnt break your relationship as he tries to do it while in it. and to be honest if you are still at the age to be able to get “grounded” i think it safe to say there will be other fish in the sea in your lifetime ;)

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its his ego .. in his mind he thought you couldnt be happy without him and it gave him a boost, now that he sees you can it kind of puts them in a defense mode to try to see if they can still trap you. Dont contact him, just let him do what hes doing and you work on your own new happiness. Im sick of people not realizing what they have/had in front of them. Its not that hard to see. So let him grovel and you just work on you and your new boo!! 

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I recently come to this speed bump in life and i went with this … If this person has scorned you then no dont wish him a happy birthday, if you are just acquaintances and an old flickering flame of friendship in which you require more … then give him a happy birthday it doesnt hurt. The only thing that bothers me is the rudeness of him not replying to your happy halloween. BUt then again we’re talking about a person that doesnt have facebook … so all bets are off. Wish him a happy birthday it doesnt hurt =) .. especially if that what your gut is saying. Always listen to your gut and intuition because its always right. Always. 

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IM TELLING YOU WAIT UNTIL YOU ARENT LIVING TOGETHER. IT’S THE DEATH SENTENCE. I am 100% positive that if you tell this person you are currently living with that you have feelings and its not mutual, then it can be disastrous. Even if the feelings are mutual .. you miss a really important stage in your relationship if you are living together off the bat. Depending on how much longer you’re living with this person, i suggest you try to hold it in otherwise it may not work out too well. As for the drifting away from your friends, thats normal and usually expected. You’re off experiencing a new stage in life and if they really are important to you, you’ll bond back with them or they will go and make the extra effort for you. Its all a part of a life and you go through stages of separation but it always comes back together, i pwomise. But good luck with those feelings and hopefully someone new and exciting will pop into your life today. 

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maybe he’s waiting for you to make the move??? Perhaps the facebook was a cry to you?? … Its either that or he unfortunately lost interest. However i see it as a win win. I think you should just ask him to be yours and then if he deny’s, then you know he’s not into it and you know you dont have to waste your time anymore. Im sure either way its going to beat the probable pit thats in your stomach every day about it until you get the answers you need. So if you feel it, let it happen bc you’ve got nothing to lose bc if hes not into it then you’re not gaining anything you already dont have so put it on the line, speak from your heart and get what you want. 

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hmm well maybe he was feeling really insecure about being gay perhaps and maybe an outside force mocked him about it .. and he wasnt man enough to be open and gay anymore so his way of coping with it is to get a girlfriend and play “normal” … but its good you’re going through this. Everyone needs to go through a broken heart. It makes you so much stronger. Youll get over it, everyone always does .. it takes a while but you will feel back to your old self, only better. You’ll feel full of life experience and ready to take on the next relationship and task in life. Its the feelings of deep emotional distress is when the most can come out of us i think. So use it to your advantage and put this energy towards something good. Go create something, go start a project. The most important thing is to keep busy. You’ll be fine i promise .. just wait for something else to come along to distract you =) 

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Hello!! Thank you very much! .. Well .. i dont believe it gets “better” I believe it gets decent and it gets to be what you make of it. IT doesnt just ” get better” by itself .. it takes you. It takes you to want it to get better and to do things to make it better. I go explore to make my life interesting and i find the beauty in life. I’ll go explore a garden, ill go for a bike ride ..  If i have work what motivates me is to finish work and get home to lounge and to just enjoy the little things. PIck out  a special food to eat. I’ve been enjoying water coloring so when i have a rough day i think about when i get to just sit smoke a bowl and water color. Thats what gets me through my day. I try not to stress the little things because they always do work out, you just cant rely on life to make it better FOR you, you have to do it yourself and reach deep down to find what you enjoy, and then do those things. 

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that is honestly such a predicament. Thats actually horrible, to be blunt and honest sweetheart you need someone that calls you beautiful ALL THE TIME. So chances of this relationship working are not so good bc the seed is already planted in your mind that youre not good all the time, and you need to be good ALL THE ITME. Or maybe you’re just over reacting, maybe he does think you’re gorgeous with curly hair .. wait and see if he ever tells you to straighten it. I think youll be fine until that day bc then you’ll know thats what he wants and you should change your natural self to appease others. In no circumstance is that okay. But i think you’ll be fine darling =) 

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